here's a note about humans.

by - 10/06/2017



I was going to put together a fun post about writing and the upcoming (yikes) NaNoWriMo, but all of that just felt weird so we're not going to do it. This isn't going to be a long post, or the best one you've seen, or one that can do something about all of this; but let's be real here: it's been a long week. Especially for me and my fellow US frens, it's been one that's full of hurt and darkness and pain. (I don't think I need to go over the specifics again. I don't think I need to re-live all of that when you can find it everywhere you look lately.) It's one of the weeks that weights heavy on your chest, a grey cloud settling over your thoughts until it's hard to come up with anything good. It's one of the weeks that makes you feel like you're well and truly losing faith in humanity, like maybe we are all bad, like all of these things keep piling up and piling up and piling up and there's nothing we can do about it. We're full of desperation and tears and the slow throbbing ache of helplessness. It's not going to fade quickly. 

(I don't know what to do about it.)

I can't tell you that it's all okay and well and good! Because it's not. There's a time for grieving and that time might last a while, while we settle in. I can't tell you that everyone is good, either, or that the world is sunshine rainbows etc. because that's impossible and we live in a world that's been tainted by sin. I also can't tell you that I know the secret to why some people are monsters and why things happen that are so dark we can't understand them. It doesn't make sense. I can't comprehend it. I don't know exactly why God allows it quite the way He does. I. Don't. Know. 

But I don't want to talk to you about despair today. 

I want to talk to you about hope.

It's hard to feel hope and happiness right now! I had to turn off Twitter for a whole day. I went to work, I hurt the whole time, I went and hit things that night and it didn't help the feeling much. Since then I've been drowning in all of the internet takes and the arguments and so on and so on. We live in an age where things like this keep on hitting us and we have constant access to them, so all of the weight is ten times heavier than before with a side of ridiculous conflict. This isn't the week I wanted to feel the beautifulness of the weather and see how nice humans are! But. 

Here's the thing about humanity: there is hope in us. 

There are humans out there who are capable of things we can't imagine. I don't know how, but they're there. And they're going to be there. As long as we're alive evil is going to be alive too. But I don't think the response is to let it crush us every time. We like to talk about how bad humanity is and how we're not worth saving, and while I understand that response, it's one I've always hated, because it's so far from true. We [you] are made in the image of God. We are something that has been marred, but we are something that exists for a reason all the same. And humanity, for all its flaws, for all of our sins that we just can't avoid, have redeeming factors. 

We have puns and stupid jokes and pranks and the way your nose scrunches up when you're trying not to laugh. 

We have babies! Babies!! have you ever seen a baby? babies are the best. 

We fight and shout and hug afterward.

The other day at work five people in a row in the drive-thru decided to pay for the drinks of the person behind them and when I told them that their faces lit up and they decided to pass that feeling on. 

We go to church and hold hands and sing hymns to the one that created us, and that reminds us that we're not alone! We aren't just pieces of flesh sludging around here on earth until we've run out of energy, we're living a life that is purposeful and we are walking forward with a reason and a future. 

Personally, it's easy for me to be pessimistic. It's easy for me to talk about how "people are the worst" and retreat into my little space where I can be bitter about it. But that's not what we're meant for, and it's not true. For all its flaws humans are still loved and loving, and isn't that something to celebrate? We exist for a reason in the middle of all our flaws. We keep going. We like stars and good music (or bad music) and even when it feels like we're just tearing each other apart, we can come together, too. 

Don't pull away. Please don't pull away. 

Fight. Smile. Make coffee for somebody and tell them to have a great day. Listen to a song you love and try not to feel guilty for enjoying it in the middle of all of this. The best reaction to evil isn't to cringe away from it and let it win, it's to strike back with all that good stuff you've got in you. To keep going even when you do bad stuff yourself. 

Keep. 

On. 

Fighting. 

We've got rotten bits and we're sinful at our core but we're not ruined, and there is purpose in us. And you know what? There's triumph at the end. 

We've already won.

It's gonna be okay. 

(i love you.)


- Aimee

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12 Comments

  1. May I just say that this made me cry? In a good, hopeful way. I so, so needed this today. Thank you for giving me some hope today, Aimee :)

    ~Emily

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  2. "The best reaction to evil isn't to cringe away from it and let it win, it's to strike back with all that good stuff you've got in you. To keep going even when you do bad stuff yourself." YUUSSSSS

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  3. THIS POST THO. I NEEDED THIS.

    " We [you] are made in the image of God. We are something that has been marred, but we are something that exists for a reason all the same." YESSSSSSS.

    "The best reaction to evil isn't to cringe away from it and let it win, it's to strike back with all that good stuff you've got in you." Also YES YES YES. I needed that reminder.

    As dear ol' Samwise said: "There's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo, and it's worth fightin' for."

    Thank you for this post! It fit your blog title to perfection--feels like hope. <3

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  4. Thank you for posting this, Aimee, I know it's a hard thing to actually consider blogging about this, and you did. Sometimes I want to pull away too, but we can't, and thank you for that reminder.
    "We've already won." I got chills.

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  5. Last night I found a song on YouTube. It was titled "He's My Son" by Mark Schultz. I wanted a song that told a story...and boy, did I get one. By the end, I was sitting in my room in tears.

    The video I clicked on was made using clips from The Passion of The Christ. But that's not all, here is the chorus of the song.

    "Can You hear me?
    Am I getting through tonight?
    Can You see him?
    Can You make him feel all right?
    If You can hear me
    Let me take his place some how.
    See, he's not just anyone, he's my son."

    The way the clips and the lyrics went together wove the story of Mary and Jesus. It told the story of how much Mary truly loved her Son and how she must have wished that she could take His place.

    But this is why He came. He came to show us just how much He loves us.

    It might sound odd that I'm mentioning all this in regards to your post. But I feel like it has a connection to everything that's happened this past week. I'm not exactly sure how, but I just feel like it does.

    As always, amazing post, Aimee. <3 <3 <3

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  6. Thank you for this. The darkness is so overwhelming sometimes. It's so important to step back and remember the beauty and how the Lord loves us all even in the midst of our broken state. Love the story about the Starbucks "pay it forward" line. Stuff like that makes my day!

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  7. Thank you so, so much. I needed this reminder; I've been drowning in anxiety this week due to the news, school, life, etc. and this made me cry, so (again) thank you.

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  8. Thank you for this post. I think I needed it more than I realized.

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  9. Hey. Thank you. Thank you for being light and hope in a world where that can be hard to come by. You are wonderful.

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