a letter to the person thinking about where they belong

by - 8/29/2017



This one is not about me. shocker. This is, in Night Vale style, a post about you. Or, more accurately, a letter, from me to you as I'm sitting here at my desk with a can of Mountain Dew and sore arms from a night of martial arts. 

Dear you, wondering if you're good enough, wondering if your words wield power, wondering how you fit in to a world that isn't half as nice as you: 

1) you are. 

2) they do. 

3) you are fearfully and wonderfully made, and you are necessary. 

I suck at posts like this. I'm not touchy feely. (You're better at that.) I'm not poetic. (You're also better at that.) I don't know how to write a long pretty most full of meaning and life. So, in typical Aimee fashion, this letter is going to be some Blunt Truths and probably some gifs too. Hold on tight. 

You might be thinking that this is a very strange and uncharacteristic post for me to write. And you're correct, it definitely is, it's something I never do. But here we are and you can just deal with it. 

First of all, hi! 

Second of all, life is scary. 

Third of all, I love you. 

Fourth of all... let's get real for a second. 

We live in a world that's doubt-filled and kinda nasty and full of things of all kinds. We live in a world that can hurt, a lot, as much as it is beautiful. We live in our heads, too, and that's the dangerous world that wants to eat us alive, isn't it? I know your head is somewhere full of hurt and throbbing ache and a whole lot of crap you don't want to deal with. I don't know all the details but I know there's anxiety and fear and all kinds of everything else, which kind of just the human experience, but it still sucks. Majorly. 

I am not going to tell you that you're a stardust fairy princess made out of constellations full of light! Because you're not! I'm not going to tell you that you're beautiful and perfect all the time! Because sometimes you're not! You are a human person, bones and skin and muscle and hair. You cry and tear and hurt and sweat and it's just a general mess most of the time! You've got a lot of sin and nastiness and awkward words and bad attitudes in there. Sometimes you are a certified Human Disaster. Which is okay, because I am too 90% of the time, and that's just how it works. 

You're not stardust. You're a human. And that makes you all the more valuable. 
just in case you did not know here is Actual Cinnamon Bun Danny Rand to sum up my general feeling here.

You're human in your messes. You're human in your words. You're human in all your awkward typos, in all your stumbling, in all of your uncertainty. You're human in the way you grapple with these questions of purpose, belonging, everything, in your hurt and struggles. (Guess what? I love you for it.)

(By the way, if you're hoping this is about you, this is about you.)

So now let's talk about your words. 

Welcome to the planet! You struggle with words like the rest of us. Unlike most people, though, your struggle with words is a little bit sharper; you've got all that power and desire in your hands to create sentences, paragraphs, worlds. You've got people and stories in your head just bursting to come out. And when you do let them out...you feel like they're not good enough. 

Which, #same. I've been there. But it's different watching from the outside. 

There's crippling self-doubt. I know that. I know you think it's not worth it and you're not any good. And I want you to know that's nonsense, right there. 

And now this letter is going in a direction different than I intended, but that's okay, y'know? Because here is what I'm really wanting to say right here and now. 

I don't have answers. 

Again, you're not a stardust fairy princess, and I'm not going to tell you that because I think our internet trends of flowery self-esteem boosting is hollow and shallow and flawed. So I'm going to tell you you're screwed up and I'm also going to tell you that's okay. 

I'm going to tell you that you take it one step at a time, I guess. 

Or one word at a time. Who knows, maybe this can apply to writing, too. 

You and your words are valuable by default because they exist. Y'know, because the God who made the universe made you too. You're going to say and do things that don't live up to that but all these words you don't think are good enough represent something that is

And you. 

Are. 

Still. 

Here. 

A very stereotypical thing to say but hey, it's true, and I'm all about the truth over here, huzzah. You're still here so you're still taking steps forward. KEEP DOING THAT. Keep taking steps back but getting up again. 

We got this.  

Keep writing words. Please. One at a time. They might not be profound now, but they matter, because they're building up to something bigger, I promise

So, dear person who thinks they're not enough: 

you kinda totally are. 


very sincerely,

- Aimee

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13 Comments

  1. I love this post and I love you for writing this at the right time for me. God bless you!

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  2. uuugghhh Aimee this is so gooood. i've been loving seeing you flourish in your new blog space. i think i'll be re-reading this post quite a bit in the near future. :) i appreciate your honesty so much.

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  3. Can I just hug this post forever and ever and ever? This is EXACTLY what I needed today. Thank you, Aimee. Thank you! <333

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    1. Omg yes! I think I might've needed it too. (But doesn't everyone need this every once in awhile?) *finds a way to hug post anyway*

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  4. "You and your words are valuable by default because they exist...because the God who made the universe made you too."

    Thank you so much Aimee. I really needed this after a not-so-stardust-fairy-princess-like first day of college.

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  5. omgosh, this is so lovely! thank you for the reminder of self-appreciation, (and Iron Fist is one of my FAVES too XP! )

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  6. THAT LAST LINE HIT ME LIKE A TRAIN WRECK OF GOODNESS <33333333333 THANK YOU SO MUCH

    rock on,
    abbiee

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  7. Amen. Thank you, Aimee.
    Thank you. I needed this.

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  8. Thank you for the encouragement! Really struggling to love what I create, or even...create at all. Feeling that #writingstruggle, yo. Great post! :)

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  9. Aaah, this is such a beautiful and encouraging post! Thank you so much for this.

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  10. This is the sort of pep talk I needed today.

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  11. Can I just say that this is actually 20947109742019x more encouraging than any of the fluffy happy "you are made of stardust and flowers" posts??? Because this was actually so freaking encouraging and everyone needs to read this. <3<3<3 Thank you for it.

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